14 Jun 2016 85 comments

Turning Over A New Leaf.

I’ve been thinking about putting my thoughts in to words (on a screen) for a while now, and now I’m finally attempting it. So here goes nothing! This post is in honour of a new me…

Last year was a really hard year for me, in so many ways. My skin woes reached an all-time low, and my confidence was rocked – because of this, I changed quite a bit and I was, in all honesty, a really horrible person to be around. Maybe some of you even noticed a difference in me.
Looking back, I can’t believe how bad I got… I was incredibly toxic, to myself and probably others around me. I alienated myself, and I’m still trying to fix this even a year or so later. I was bitter, exhausted and full of self-loathing – and it took me so long to realise that I was the problem. No one else, just me.

That realisation hit me like a freight train; I had literally backed myself in to a corner. My work suffered, because I was too insecure to share photos of myself, to film videos, meet people or even chat to you guys online. Even when I did meet new people, I wasn’t exactly a dream to be around. I was miserable, and I made everyone else miserable too!
I was feeling my worst, in a time where everyone else around me seemed to have their shit together. Your mid-twenties is supposed to be a time where things start to fall in to place, right? Not for me.

I’ve mentioned before that I eventually reached a stage where I couldn’t take it anymore, and I actively sought help for my skin and other issues. Thankfully things are really picking up now, but there’s still a lot to work through when it comes to my self-esteem. I’m constantly aiming to improve on myself, I want to be the best I possibly can.
I wanted to share some of these thoughts and aims with you… maybe to inspire you, but also to keep me on track.

01. Feeling good inside and out. It’s true what they say, you know – you are what you eat! Blah blah blah, time to cut down on the Dairy Milk.
I’ve always been quite good at eating well, but I’ve really being making a conscious effort to eat better and live better. Exercise has really helped me to clear my head and feel better about myself. I don’t even think I’ve lost weight, but I really do feel like I’m making a difference in terms of my general well-being.

02. Other people’s success is not your failure. I think this has become my mantra – changing the way I think when someone around me does something awesome has honestly been life-changing for me. It’s too easy to compare yourself to others, to feel like a loser when everyone around you is winning.
I like to keep reminding myself that we are not all on the same path, but that doesn’t mean we’re lost. We have different goals, different timelines and different ideals! We gotta keep on keeping on.

03. It’s nice to be nice. If there’s one thing this whole ordeal has taught me, it’s that you have NO idea what people are going through – their own personal battles. I didn’t really let on that I was struggling – with my skin issues, with a death in the family, with knowing I wouldn’t see my parents for extended periods of time. I just kept to myself, it seemed like the easiest thing to do.
Anyway, my point is that kindness and empathy and good vibes go a long way. No more negativity from me.

04. Say yes! These past 18 months, I turned down everything. Everything. I said no to trips, to hangs with friends, to events, to opportunities, to plans. It got me nowhere.
Obviously, I was struggling with myself and I didn’t want to leave my comfort zone, but I still regret it a lot. Saying that, I feel a lot better having given myself time to work on me.
From now on, I wanna be a yes girl! I want to do fun things, meet people… do everything I said no to before! I really want to change this pessimistic thinking.

05. Don’t be so hard on yourself. This is something I need to tell myself over and over, I am truly my own worst enemy! I definitely do have quite a self-deprecating sense of humour, but I feel like I really need to stop picking on myself all the damn time. So what if I’m not supermodel tall and have thighs like a wrestler. So what if I have a laugh that can be heard two streets away. These things make a person, and it’s about time I embraced these little quirks.

06. No one cares. No one cares that you didn’t wash your hair today, no one cares that you have a little roll when you sit down because your skirt digs in. No one cares that you get nervous telling stories even in little groups, that you’re probably lifting that barbell wrong in the gym, that you feel out of place around certain people.
Everyone is too busy worrying about their own things to worry about what you’re doing. It took me so long to realise this, and when I did it was like a revelation! Why hone in on these small details when no one else gives a shit?

I’m going to make a conscious effort to be someone who makes a difference – someone who is fun to be around, who makes other people feel good about themselves and makes an effort with it comes to friendships and plans and being a lovely person.

Who’s with me on turning over a new leaf?!

  • Aw Kate, I love the points you made here. It’s nice to be nice-so simple yet something so many people don’t encourage enough. I always get torn between ‘treat people how you want to be treated’ & ‘treat people how they treat you’. Saying yes & not being so hard on myself is something I’m trying to do so much more!! I honestly love this whole post. It’s so nice to read more personal posts from you. I always worry about my ‘lil roll’ too-but who honestly cares?? It’s human! This is just the best encouragement to be more human & generally chill, I love it. Thanks for this Kate, such a sweet reminder 🙂

    Katie // Words By Katie

  • These are amazing points you made and I for sure can relate to some of them! <3

    franalibi.blogspot.co.uk

  • So sorry to hear that you hadn’t been feeling yourself. Thank you for talking about it – its so easy for us to compare ourselves, and I know I have read your blog so many times and thought you had the dream life. Its so true that you never really know what anyone is going through! Loving all of the positivity and hoping it makes you feel so much better 🙂 x

    Sophie Cliff

  • Gaby Briscombe

    I love this post, as usual! I am trying to work on nearly all the points you’ve mentioned here to – taking time for yourself is so much harder than you think!
    Love your blog 🙂

    Gab xx

    gabloves.wordpress.com

  • Lizzie

    I have been struggling with a lot of similar issues over the past eight months and finally feel like things are turning around. It’s always a nice reminder to know that we aren’t alone in the world when dealing with things and these are some really great points that I’m definitely going to keep in mind.

    Sending some positive vibes your way

    xx Lizzie

    gildedthistles.wordpress.com

  • Teresa

    Such an inspiring post to read. Different mentalities will always be there and you can’t change them all but we can all learn to not care about what others think. It’s so hard but so worth it and liberating in the end!

    Keep on going Kate ☺️

  • Life can be too hard to us when it is being good to others, it is the time everything starts to fall apart! I agree with every point you make, we are all different and taking different routes. It might take someone to reach their goals 1 day and someone else to 1 year, it is not a failure but determination. We should be happy with ourselves then we can reflect it to others, I know sometimes it is not easy but it is all about wanting to change and working towards your happiness first. So yes to turning over a new leaf!

    Ela BellaWorld

  • Glad you are feeling more positive now Kate – I also suffered badly with my skin last year and it really got me down so I too alienated myself a bit as I didn’t want people to look at me! Like you, exercise, different products and talking to people has helped! Hope you have a great summer 🙂 Steph x
    http://www.stephstyle.com

  • Sally

    Love this! Kia kaha Kate x

  • Lovely post!! My skin has been such a problem or me lately but it’s finally starting to sort itself out! x

    http://www.abeautyromance.com
    http://www.abeautyromance.com

  • I loved reading this because I really see myself in it. I’ve been in a toxic relationship for two years and I turned down everything around me because I felt so insecure. Once I’d cut it off, I felt so free and fresh and I became a ‘yes-girl’, became the kindest and nicest version of myself and I really started to not care about my flaws anymore. It’s really good to read a story like this 😀 xo Romy

  • I loved this post! It’s amazing to constantly try and improve yourself and your well-being to become happier each day!
    Cloe X clxelouise.blogspot.com

  • Yes yes yes! I feel a lot of these points are me too, I am such a recluse and have let a lot of friendships wither away to nothing in the past few years, I’m not where I want to be in life and ohhh gosh my skin! I’m still working on that. I’m having a bad week right now, but I know I’m getting better, mind+body health wise.. so just gotta keep on trucking, every day is a new one and all that. I miss chattin with you, too! Next time you go on an adventure to london with J, maybe go to manchester instead? 😉 I swear it’s just as nice and we could meet for allll of the pancakes, or sushi, or avocado or whatev. 😀 x

  • Great post. I definitely feel like I’ve changed for the worst this year at uni from having a pants year. But I’m so ready to start third year with a determined attitude and have my best final year at uni 🙂

    Kate xo // http://www.beautybabbles.com

  • I think number 6 is my favourite, such an awesome post. I understand completely where you are coming from. Saved, and thank you for sharing. It’s nice sometimes to read about others and their work in progress instead of beating yourself up about your own. Lovely x

    ALittleKiran | Bloglovin

  • I admire you so much for writing such a personal post that speaks to so many of us.. I’ve been going through so much shit recently and this post kind of made me feel like I am not alone and all of us have struggles of our own x

    CLUB AVENUE / http://club-avenue.blogspot.com / instagram

  • Becca

    Love this post! I think everyone goes through periods of having a really shitty time. As long as you can somehow spin it into a positive then it will be okay in the end xx

    http://www.girlglobalising.com

  • i think its such a brave thing to open up about your feelings online and i loved reading this post and some of your goals are mine too. i always compare myself to others and i want to change it so bad. it gets me down so easily. also, i’m so harsh with myself in any way and it annoys me sometimes. learning to love yourself can be hard but its worth it for sure.

    loovelle.blogspot.com

  • Wow this is really brave to discuss but I’m sure it will help others. I am trying to make healthier choices and start walking to try and get out more and exercise. Good luck with your aims!

    Rebecca Claire – RebeccaClaireBlog

  • Loved reading this, there are lots of things to learn from this post! Best of luck with all the changes you’re about to make 🙂
    – Ambar x
    http://www.herlittleloves.co.uk

  • myst

    It was truly meaningful reading this, I’ve also had my downs and experienced a time in life when things aren’t going right. It’s important not to lose yourself and your personality when times are tough, and I totally agree that we should always be nice to people bcos we don’t know what they are going through and mean words could really hurt deep when it’s said to someone in a vulnerable state of mind at that time!

  • fab post Kate. It’s hard to realise when you’re in a really negative cycle and it’s so easy to become overwhelmed. Well done for taking the steps to breaking it though and here’s to a happier, healthier life ahead!

    Hannah xx
    Raspberry Kitsch | UK Fashion & Lifestyle Blog

  • Ceri

    Lovely post 🙂
    Sometimes it takes you feeling at your worst to overcome it all – I’ve certainly realised that the last year, and now I feel better than ever!
    Good luck with being a Yes girl!

    Ceri x
    October Eleven

  • I love that second thought. It’s so true. We should celebrate other people’s success and be inspired by it, not feel envious or jealous. And I love the concept of just saying YES to things.

  • Great stuff!

    moremindfulyou.blogspot.com

  • Sammie

    I can completely relate to the skin issue – I’m 33 and still get acne, on my face, chest and back. I’m not allowed to take roaccutane, so I’m trying to control it as best I can, but it’s not easy, and it always makes me want to hide away. I managed to get hold of some retin-a for my face (you can’t get it on prescription anymore, so I had to get it off eBay), and alternating that with duac has helped, but my skin is so dull and scarred that it terrifies me to meet people, especially new people, and I end up hiding behind my hair (which probably just draws more attention). I’ve tried so many things to brighten it within my tight budget, but nothing has worked. I also won’t put a swimsuit on, so I miss out in the summer when everyone is down the beach, and that’s also because I get ingrown hairs on my legs, and scars from that, and also KP (I use Tend Skin and also moisturise religiously, but it doesn’t do much, and it shows more as my skin is pale), so I hate getting them out. I always long for autumn when I can put on a pair of tights so that I can wear a dress! I know I shouldn’t care, but when it’s everywhere it’s really difficult, and it’s completely normal to feel like crap around people who have great skin (as long as we always realise that it’s not their fault!). All I can do is eat as healthily as I can and drink plenty of water.
    I’m so lucky I met my husband when I did and that he doesn’t care about my flaws and is supportive, because I honestly think I’d be too embarrassed to let anyone see me, now! I’m working on breaking the cycle, but it’s tough, especially when it can get so deep that it leads to things like anxiety and depression. All we can do is try our best xx

  • C (The Life Of C and H )

    This is SUCH a good post, thank you for writing this. I think it’s so easy to look at someone who you admire and just think that they have their shit together 100% of the time. And I don’t think thats the case for anyone. New leaf, new chapter, new page. Whatever you want to call it! Good luck, you seem so motivated and it’s inspiring.

    I recently started a new leaf myself, I think you’re right in saying what you eat affects you, I found a massive correlation between what I eat and my moods and I’m making a point to tell myself positive things about myself, I think we spend to much time thinking negatively and it’s so easy to carry on feeling that way. So what if you have to make an effect to think positively and better yourself, soon it will be habit! 🙂 C x

    http://www.thelifeofcandh.com

  • This is such a positive lovely empowering post!! Thank you soo much for sharing this! I fell like this would be super beneficial for everyone to read!!! Great post!

    Amelia | http://amelia-g.blogspot.com.au/

  • Maggie

    Love this post! I am so happy for you and happy things are looking up! Its so true about worrying about what other people think. I am still in my early 20’s and I still think that everyone is judging me. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts! You are truly an amazing beautiful person!

    http://thatsmagsforyou.com

  • Sara

    Such a lovely post! I can relate to your skin issue. I had a really bad skin in my teens and for a couple of years it really cleared up. But the last couple of months it went to a bad state again. I hate it so back on some medicine to clear it up. Good luck with all the changes you are going to make! xx

  • Sophie Stewart

    Really interesting read! I can relate with skin issues, I’ve had problems with my skin for over ten years and it really gets me down too. Sophie x

    https://stylestarsandsparkle.blogspot.co.uk

  • This is so inspiring !! I’m in on the turning a new leaf thing! I’ve been so down about work and about my body image lately, I feel like I lost myself a bit.
    Time to choose happiness, yasss gurl 😀
    Lots of love, Anais

  • This is an amazing post, I’ve been going through a similar phase in my mid-twenties. They are quite the confusing time, but all of your tips are important to remember! Thanks 🙂
    http://www.necessarynothings.com

  • I new leaf for me as well. I’m thinking about quitting dairy and meat too, but it’s hard because food costs like a lot! About the 02.point, that is my minus as well. I keep thinking I need to be perfect and better and better than others in the way I don’t cheer when others success, but I should.

    Time to work on myself.

    Mikela from http://www.lovingfromberlin.blogspot.com

  • This post came at just the perfect time – without getting into details, it helped me put some things into perspective with some things I have been dealing with lately. Thank you, Kate!
    PS: I love your laugh, it always puts a smile on my face(in a good way!)

  • Yes Kate, this is so inspiring to read! I am really sorry to hear you went through a rough time last year but it’s so refreshing to hear what you’re doing to give yourself that kick up the butt to start a fresh, I can what a difference you’re making through your videos, with your vlogs being so refreshing to watch because they’re just so normal and down to earth. It’s time for me too to start saying yes to more and stop being that girl who brings everyone down and feels sorry for themselves or sad often! New leaves for us all and I hope you continue to bloom
    http://www.pagesfrombeth.blogspot.com/

  • this is sooo lovely, Kate! I’m happy you’re feeling better 🙂 x

    http://www.serenbird.com/

  • It’s so easy to stay in a little cocoon! I’m glad you’ve realised what was happening. Keep going 🙂
    Allison
    brol.ly

  • Ashley Christabelle

    Yes, yes and yes, girl! So happy for you and hope you are feeling a whole lot better than you did last year. Like you said, no one cares! What you’re most self conscious, other people will most likely not notice it. Sending all my love to you! x

    http://www.ashrealasitgets.blogspot.com

  • Kayleigh Bickle

    “It’s nice to be nice.” Is a major thing I focus on now. I personally got really low and I would be bitter towards people for no reason. Now I am so thankful of the people who are there for me and give a crap. I always try and pick up a small posey of flowers or some baked goods for a friend if I’m meeting up with them after a little while. I get way more out of the gift then they do!

  • Claire Rice

    This is lovely, and is exactly what im going through right now. I might still be a bit behind you and definitely dont have my shit together, but this helped me to know im not the only one. Trapping myself in a corner is something I am known for – but being a ‘yes’ girl is something I really want to work on!

  • Kimberly Ann

    I love this! I’ve been going through a really hard time the past couple of months, and this was what I need to read <3

    Kim
    http://bit.ly/1URfM9f .. Summertime ESSENTIAL!

  • Megan Clarke

    This is a lovely post, i’m glad you are learning to love yourself, and to be confident and happy.

    http://www.whynotblog.co.uk

  • Really related to this post! I spent years like this and it really is so hard to snap out of! Realising that really, people don’t notice these little things we obsess over was a game-changer for me. I was also terrible for comparing myself to others. It really is true that comparison is the theif of joy.

    http://www.kaylachats.com/

  • Nadia Sabrina

    Everyone reaches a point, Kate. And once you reach your own, it’ll turn you to a whole new you. A more positive version of you. Thank you for making this blog post so beautifully worded.

    Love from Indonesia,
    nnsabrina.blogspot.com

  • All of your goals are great and so, so true, especially the one about having empathy for others, you never know what other people are going through! All these goals are so good and I’m glad you’re feeling better! 🙂

    Millie x // Millie’s Wardrobe

  • Anna

    Beautiful post Kate, I agree with you 100%. This will go straight to the small list of my favourite posts of all time. Thank you
    XO
    Anna From Italy

    https://pineapplemakeup.wordpress.com/2016/06/04/1-birthday-blog-box/
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  • Sam

    I really love your new outlook and agree with everything you’ve said. I think it’s all about improving your health and wellbeing, and then the rest all falls into place xxx

    Sam // What I Know Now

  • This is SO well written. I feel like you were reading my points in point two. Because I decided to change my career path whilst all my friends are blossoming in their jobs, I do feel like a loser. But I’ve got my own mountain to climb, it’s not theirs!

  • Susan
  • Caz

    I definitely need to remind myself of number 6 more often, lovely post Kate, i’m glad you’re starting to feel more yourself again 🙂

    Caz | This is Caz

  • “Other people’s success is not your failure”. I love that quote Kate! It’s so hard for me not to compare myself to others. Whenever someone I know is “doing better” or can do things better than me, it hits my self esteem hard! Being happy for other people and learning from their success is something I am constantly working on.

    http://www.thebeautydojo.com

  • It’s like you read my mind on point 6 – it’s so true that all these tiny insecurities only matter to you yourself and no one else. It’s silly that we get so caught up on them but you do have to be truly happy not to let yourself. Glad to hear you feel ready to turn over a new leaf and I definitely understand how a combination of bereavement and acne could leave you feeling so low as I’ve been there myself. They change how you see yourself and the world around you. You can come through it though and this proves that you have. Lovely words, I’ll remember them 🙂
    Rebecca | Notes From September
    Xx

  • Lucy Clifford

    Absolutely love this post. I am almost 39 and some of these statements smacked me in the face! I feel a bit lost in my life at the moment so a big thank you for this post. Time to shape up, in every way! X

  • Geraldine

    I NEVER comment blog posts, but reading this was so refreshing and made me feel energised, I relate SO much to everything you wrote. I struggled for the past three years with a lot of stuff and a major part of that was my self confidence and now I am starting to feel like a completely different person even though I almost haven’t lost weight or changed dramatically my appearence and thanks to that I am realizing that everything depends on your perspective and how you choose to approach life and to LIVE life, not just exist on your comfort zone feeling sorry for yourself, it’s not easy and it takes time and the stuborness to keep trying even when you feel exhausted but it’s so worth it. I hope everything goes amazing in your life Kate and I’m sorry if my english is really bad xx

  • Cait

    Kate you absolute babe. I’ve read your blog for a couple of years now and you’re always refreshingly real and down to earth. Keep on truckin’. Cait X

  • Great tips, it is so easy to fall into a negativity trap. ‘Other people’s success is not your failure’ is such a nice motto to live by.

  • 2 and 5 hit way too close to home. As much as I love my bf’s jokes about me being The Queen of Misery, I wish I could stop constantly comparing myself with others and then beating myself up for not doing enough. We all really are our own worst enemies! Awesome post, Kate, keep up the good work xx

    Grozio Rekrutai

  • So sorry to hear you’ve been struggling Kate, but glad you’re feeling more positive now. It can be so hard to get yourself out of that slump so well done you for turning things around <3

    Jess xo | The Indigo Hours

  • Loved reading this post and how raw you were, Kate! I can relate to a lot of things you said, from low self esteem to caring too much about what others are thinking to not getting out of my bubble. I’m definitely with you on turning a new leaf in my life. I want to do more things I love, say yes more often and make an effort to not be so hard on myself! And btw, I wish I had your laugh, it’s so contagious (mine is very quiet)! 🙂 x

  • Stephanie Hartley

    This was such a refreshing post! It’s so brave to actually open up and say these things to yourself more than anyone else. It’s hard to recognise that you’ve made mistakes, and I really hope you can look back in a year, and be lik, do you know what, I ROCKED this year! <3

    Steph – http://www.nourishmeblog.co.uk

  • I absolutely needed to read this post ♥ Life has been so absolutely hectic lately (losing my father, going to college full time, working full time, planning a wedding, working on preparing our house to sell, and being a mom) has absolutely drained me. I feel miserable inside and out and cannot seem to function some days. I will be saving this post and reading it many more times!

  • Lucy

    Kate, I can’t say I noticed a negative difference in you last year but I have definitely noticed a difference in your this year with regard to the fantastic quality of blog posts, great videos, snapchats and an instagram game that is seriously ON POINT. I am really enjoying following you 🙂

  • Stacy

    I just stumbled upon this post having never been on your blog before and I am feeling really inspired by it. I’m going through a similar thing at the moment. Being insecure, anxious and living in a country at the opposite side of the World to my family has had such a negative impact on me and I have kind of shut myself off from the World. And I have not been a very nice person. So thanks for sharing this. I’m going to start putting some of these points into action myself. Good luck with this coming year! 😀

  • A freakin’ MEN Kate. You do you. It’s so true – we spend such an insane amount of time worrying about how great everyone else is and totally forget that we (as in you, the individual) are limited edition! I’m glad you’re feeling more like yourself these days. Xx

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  • That’s a great attitude to have. I swear 99% of people are their own worse enemies.

  • Oh my goodness, I’m so happy for you that you’re feeling better! Three years ago, I was going through the WORST time of my life. My health was awful, I hated the man I had in my life, and I was also saying no to everything. It was a bad time, but when I eventually got a bit of help from doctors and my family, got rid of the asshole, and started to get out of the house, my whole life turned around! I can relate to how you feel so much, and I’m so glad that you’re feeling good about yourself. You’re so talented, and your blog is amazing. I admire you so much, so keep doing what you’re doing 🙂 PS. totally didn’t notice you were that sad via the inter-webs, if that’s any help!

  • It is posts and comments left like these which show we all go through these times! We are one! Loved this post! Nothing is permanent so just focus on your daily happiness 🙂 xx
    Ivy xo
    http://www.ivyrode.co.uk

  • This is an amazing post, it’s so refreshing to read about thoughts and feelings I can really identify with. I honestly didn’t notice a negative tone at all through your blog, but I’m so glad to hear you’re starting to feel better. My mid twenties have only just recently stopped being an absolute disaster, so I totally know how you feel there! X

    Tessa at Bramble & Thorn

  • It was so refreshing to read such an honest post and it’s so nice to see you admitting your faults without sugar coating them, even if they are a tough pill to swallow! It’s so good to hear that you are a feeling much better, though! x

    nueyork.blogspot.com

  • I’m with you Kate! I relate so much to everything you wrote, especially the ‘no one cares’ part. I’m so tired to hold my self back because I think that anyone can judge me, who cares?! I really want to do what I love the most and fully appreciate it. Thank you for being so real and honest! Lots of love! xo

    http://www.theprettypeony.com

  • Such an honest, heartfelt post. I always feel that it is so brave to admit our darknesses and “faults” but you did this beautifully, by turning it into a lesson and a positive, inspirational message to yourself and others.

    Aimee
    http://www.intherightplaces.com

  • AR

    Loved reading this. Love your blog.

  • Wow wow wow, you hit the nail on the head. I’ve been going through similar things, honestly. This past year I felt like a complete mess, and I too felt like I was the only one who didn’t have their shit together. I have to say, number 06 was honestly so perfect, I think I dropped my mouth open a bit while I read it because all your examples are exactly things I have worried about before. And you’re right, they all seem so trivial in hindsight. No one really cares about that stuff! Great post 🙂
    Julia || http://juliainbluhm.blogspot.com

  • Thank you so for these inspirational words Kate <3 Just like you, this past year has been a real struggle for me too, but I've been working hard to actively try to improve! Just like you said, we just need to keep on keeping 🙂 Loved this personal post so much!

    XO, Elizabeth
    http://clothestoyouuu.com/

  • Yes yes yes, totally yes! I completely understand your feelings about skin, when I get a bad breakout or resurgence of acne I hate myself, my appearance and don’t want to make myself look pretty because it’s just so much effort. I’ve started my treatment back up again, and my skin is starting to clear up again although I still have deep bumps still to bugger off – but it’s getting better and even yesterday I felt pretty which was a huge improvement for me to say about myself.

    I also got caught in a spiral and environment where people focused on others negatively and it made me feel the same, and since I left it I feel better and have experienced more things. I feel a bit mixed in my wellbeing right now but I’m with you on sharing thoughts on turning over a new leaf – it really does help you speak out your fears and desires 🙂

    Lauren x
    Britton Loves | Lifestyle Beauty Wellbeing

  • Chey

    I love everything about this article. I have gone through my moments of feeling miserable and feeling when the world is falling down around me and nothing was going to get better…but like you, there came a time for me to focus on the positive things in life and what I can be grateful for. I am sorry that you had to go through that stage in your life, but it brings a smile to my face that you have changed and are sharing your story with the world! You are an inspiration and I can’t wait to see how you continue to change your life for the better!

    Chey | thebolyngirl.wordpress.com

  • It made me cry so much! I’m so hard on myself sometimes too, and I really want to stop! So inspiring!!!!! Love your blog!

  • Sarah Cale

    Such a great post, I’m certainly guilty of being a negative Nelly sometimes, this has given my a kick up the bum to get started on sharing positivity and leading a happier healthier life <3 x

  • Erin

    Such a great post. I related to it so much…going through skin struggles in your mid twenties is so hard and really does just destroy your confidence. Your skin has been looking truly amazing and I’m so glad you’ve been able to start feeling better!

    Erin | http://www.eyreanywhere.com

  • Wow, I honestly felt like I was reading about myself in this post. Here’s to turning over a new leaf! x

  • Beauty Bird

    Great post, really inspiring. I think I need to take a leaf out of your book!! xx

  • I’m a little late reading this post, but it was right on time for me. Thank you for being honest about your struggles as so many bloggers always put on a good front and don’t discuss the tough times. Kudos to you for being so brave and open. It’s really really appreciated!

  • Lisa Jayne Quick

    “….we are not all on the same path, but that doesn’t mean we’re lost”… I LOVE this sentence. It really struck a cord with me because I am feeling really lost right now and trying to get over hurdles my anxiety (and life troubles at 24) throws at me. I’m really glad you’re starting to look after you more. I follow you on Insta and think you’ve got gorgeous skin, don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re very inspirational! I’m still trying so hard to turn over my leaf (that thing is heavy) but I am sure with ya!
    Thank you, this post was great to read.
    – Lisa lisajaynetextiles.co.uk

  • Katie

    Wow. You are so cool and fun and your honesty really spoke to me and is inspiring. I can relate to every point you made. Here’s to a brilliant future ahead!